In the past week or so I find myself waking up to a blank. What have I been up to and what am I to do? Yesterday was busy, tense and exhilarating. The future seemed full of boundless possibilities. But today it’s just a faint memory. I then re-collect in spurts the potential excitement round the corner at venturing on to one of the myriad areas of interest of mine and the past body of work that provides me with sufficient leads to plan a day of exploits. But it is just that - spurts - sporadic - spontaneous - exploration drives. It has super worked for me to explore vast new territories. But not exploit them to their tilt or my potential. Which is also great (rather interpreted for convenience) for it provides an easy pace that lets me roam around the current area of interest as I engage with it.
All this has been great, but for my bank balance statement. Which again never really bothered me given the strong real world social safety network in India, I was doing fine. But the independence in spirit and actions is also dictated by independence in financial and material possessions? At-least by some cultural practices it does and it certainly has its benefits. But I would still argue it is just shifting from one umbrella to the other ( from social family institutions to state & organizational ones) Hence at the end of the day its still the same, if the pursuit is freedom. I doubt there is anything absolute about it, in any context. Not that I would really want it absolute either for it would mean that I shift to moon or some other dimension (not that it will help t cut all the umbilical chords would exist! Memories being the strongest)
Nevertheless, more the umbrella's the merrier. The notion of freedom to move between them depending on conditions is freedom in itself. With this in mind I have taken on to being professional with my loafing and do the "evil" deed of monetizing it? Why evil? Well it is something that I would have paid to do myself. But if its of value to someone else and they pay me for it, I think it is the most evil brilliant idea. I suppose that is the idea of mutual exchange with a negotiated price valuation with no material goods traded - but with material goods that can be consumed as an outcome! That is the ingenious magic of service and innovations industry. The guilt factor perhaps comes in with the not so secret knowledge that this is building on the knowledge of others (like Newton's comment on standing on the shoulder of giants). But the consolation to accepting this scheme perhaps is my risk appetite to put my limbs and life on the line (of-course its a bit of a dramatization which we call adding masala to the story, for I have hardly moved beyond 500 miles from home base in the past ten years! How risky can it get. James Bond is still a fantasy). Nevertheless to go out there and mount these giants and to peep into the vast horizons and apply the explorations and exploits to hopefully the benefit of the ones that are willing to employ my services is the aim (the latter is only in the instances when I intend to be 'professional' but more so intend to be productive. )
Fortunately many a nice (smart?) people and organizations have believed in me in the past eight years and have taken on my risks (not always conscious of it up-front) and hopefully they have enjoyed certain rewards (more on it in emergingforms.blogspot.com). In exchange they have given me enough terrains to explore and provided sufficient funds and materials in return to venture into new terrains as I hit the plateaus of the present. My mental note has always been to return back with the new found treasures and enrich those that have believed and supported me in the past and see the potential of it in the future.
This blog is dedicated to all those that believed in me but more so for those that questioned and critiqued me. The latter is the one that pushed me to the limits of imagination and sometimes action. It is the resurrection of an old blog that was started during a similar phase in the past when I was to choose a path. This time around given my avataar as a self-employed management and technology consultant, I think I can thread many a paths and hope to bring many a worlds from the past, present and future under many a umbrellas together to a boundless future.
This starts with exploring the treasure trove of materials and memories in my room. More on it in the next blog. Also will be starting another blog (emergingforms.blogspot.com to focus more on 'professional serious' talk on 'adult' things relating to work and the world)
For now leaving behind a peek hole into my home base command post. Will cover the stories in the upcoming blogs. Stay tuned. :)
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